Fork in the Road

I was able to get back into things after a few outings and pretty soon was going out with even more attractive women compared to before. However, there was something amiss about all this. I found that I was going out in order to force myself to survive, to get over a failed relationship and to get me a new one. Having a few options didn't help the matter either, it actually confused me even more. Before long, going out and playing the field became a chore, a distraction and a burden for me.
I came to the realization that the Game may have brought me women, dates and fun... but it didn't brought me what I was and still looking for, which is love. It may sound cliche, but I have forgotten the reason why I started this whole thing before.

Long ago, I was always the one without the upper hand in a man - woman interaction. Often times, I was trapped in the dreaded 'friends zone' with a woman I am attracted. Like a chump I stayed in there, hoping for a change which I know now would have never come. I have experienced terrible things emotionally that I vowed never I would let myself be in that position again. After the Game, I was able to maintain control over my interactions and never caught myself stepping into the 'friends zone', however I felt there was something missing.
Everything became mechanic to me. I am confident enough to know that I can get a girl out and have a good chance for her to be interested in me, however I realize the 'feeling' has been missing. That true feeling for someone...

I know that letting go of the Game may open myself for another emotional pain, however perhaps the payoff may be worth it. After all, feeling something is better than not feeling at all...