Crossroads

I've been meaning to write this piece for the past week or so now, I just haven't figured out how to come up with the best format to express my thoughts.
Anyways, I guess I will have to go way back to the beginning...

You see, a friend of mine recommended me to the read The Game to better understand how to interact with women, a department I was lacking at. Although, I wouldn't say that the book changed my life, it did opened my eyes to many many things I was missing before. I studied up some more, read materials and discussed the contents and applications to some of my friend, Master Djedi and Mrs. Chickpea to name some...
I learned and studied and was feeling very excited and apprehensive at the same time, I just couldn't believe that these crazy theories and practices could somehow better my chances with women. Tried them out I did, practiced I did, did it work? Surprisingly, yes...
Even though I didn't use every detail or pick up lines mentioned in the book or the other materials, I was able to deduct the basic content of it. Basically, by improving your inner balance, you will somehow create an 'aura' of attraction from yourself and this 'aura' can subconsciously be projected to others. Of course, after that comes the conversational skills, body language and mind tactics that follows as well.
I practiced this on every girl I met and went out with... Counting to this day, I think I have went out with around 30 women in the past 2 years and have had a pretty good success rate. You see, I don't go out with so many women to get off from the fact that I got a lot of girlfriends nor do I get any psychological satisfaction from seducing women in general. I was practicing so that when the One showed up, I'd be ready... Well, the result was I found myself a girlfriend that I really like, but we all know that story ended.
After the break up, I was in full swing mode again with my Game. I was eager to bounce back and get myself back in the Game again. This time, what I found was different...