I was driving through my usual work route this morning... When I drove pass a familiar rice stall, I was surprised to see that the building was torn down and of course any food stalls nearby would be kicked out as well...
This is the second time my favorite food place in Jakarta got ousted by some building development project. OK the first one was a nice and cheap Indonesian food canteen which I frequented for lunch at the time. I could eat very well and healthy for about one dollar, that place was torn down because the city government was building a park on that exact location. Since it is a public park, which have been built nicely by now, I can understand... City like Jakarta needs some greenery and public park.
This one however... I don't think it's gonna be a public park, perhaps it'll be an apartment tower or shopping complex again. Damnit...
Don't get me wrong, I am mostly pro development, mostly... However, perhaps being a small town boy, there's just a part of me that misses an open market, wet market, food stalls, etc... There's just that feeling that's irreplaceable.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
Doctor Melvi
So, a little over a month ago, I think...
I decided to see a psychiatrist to help me with my ups and downs and refocus my direction... Even though I am mostly OK, I mean... I am not breaking down or anything (most of the time, at least)... I feel that perhaps I do need some outside professional help for my problem(s) in the long run.
This isn't the first time I seek therapy sessions. In the past I have had some help to deal with more drastic situations in my life before. However, Dr. Melvi is perhaps the first truly real psychologist that I had.
(due to Doctor and Patient confidentiality agreement, I am unwilling to divulge any details about the therapy session... however...)
It seems that a lot of the turmoil I have been experiencing is rooted on one thing...
It's been my problem for a long time, I thought I have gotten better at it, feeling better about it, etc... However, it's amazing how my demon can rear it's ugly head once more.
I was amazed how Dr. Melvi jumped at that conclusion halfway in our session. I hope to put this demon to rest... Hopefully, for good...
I decided to see a psychiatrist to help me with my ups and downs and refocus my direction... Even though I am mostly OK, I mean... I am not breaking down or anything (most of the time, at least)... I feel that perhaps I do need some outside professional help for my problem(s) in the long run.
This isn't the first time I seek therapy sessions. In the past I have had some help to deal with more drastic situations in my life before. However, Dr. Melvi is perhaps the first truly real psychologist that I had.
(due to Doctor and Patient confidentiality agreement, I am unwilling to divulge any details about the therapy session... however...)
It seems that a lot of the turmoil I have been experiencing is rooted on one thing...
It's been my problem for a long time, I thought I have gotten better at it, feeling better about it, etc... However, it's amazing how my demon can rear it's ugly head once more.
I was amazed how Dr. Melvi jumped at that conclusion halfway in our session. I hope to put this demon to rest... Hopefully, for good...
Sunday, January 11, 2009
First Day of Practice...
Today was the first day of Kendo practice in 2009...
Since we have lost our Wednesday Night Fight Club space, our Sunday school dojo is currently the only place which we can have our practice.
Today, Mr. SMura was leading practice for a change, and he had something special for us in mind. Breaking our Kendo vacation, his basics practice program was perhaps 3 times the amount that we usually do. Needless to say many of our members were overwhelmed, thankfully the weather was unusually cool. After the practice was done only a few of us remain standing... Thankfully the gym routine helped to last through the whole session, even though I'd be lying if I say it didn't tire me out... It was tiring!!
Since we have lost our Wednesday Night Fight Club space, our Sunday school dojo is currently the only place which we can have our practice.
Today, Mr. SMura was leading practice for a change, and he had something special for us in mind. Breaking our Kendo vacation, his basics practice program was perhaps 3 times the amount that we usually do. Needless to say many of our members were overwhelmed, thankfully the weather was unusually cool. After the practice was done only a few of us remain standing... Thankfully the gym routine helped to last through the whole session, even though I'd be lying if I say it didn't tire me out... It was tiring!!
Friday, January 9, 2009
And Off We Go...
The year started with a lot of work...
Finishing up a lot of overdue reports needed for my work, I spent a good part of my week in meetings and cramming at the office...
So much that I think I neglected to carry out a lot of my routines and social life.
Kendo starts tomorrow, I am kinda looking forward to that.
Other than that, the search for a new practice location continues. Surprisingly, some of the Japanese and Indonesian members started to chip in looking for a possible location as well... With the Hong Kong Tournament looming, hopefully we will be able to find a new location soon.
Honestly, I am a bit relieved that some of the people started to chip in with the search... it kinda takes some pressure off my back a bit...
Finishing up a lot of overdue reports needed for my work, I spent a good part of my week in meetings and cramming at the office...
So much that I think I neglected to carry out a lot of my routines and social life.
Kendo starts tomorrow, I am kinda looking forward to that.
Other than that, the search for a new practice location continues. Surprisingly, some of the Japanese and Indonesian members started to chip in looking for a possible location as well... With the Hong Kong Tournament looming, hopefully we will be able to find a new location soon.
Honestly, I am a bit relieved that some of the people started to chip in with the search... it kinda takes some pressure off my back a bit...
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Should Old Acquintance be Forgot...
So 2008 is FINALLY over, and to tell you the truth I'm kinda glad that it did...
Of course I realize that January 1st 2009 will be the same as any other day on the calendar, nothing changed and everything else continues, but 2008, it feels like a thorn by my side...
As some of you may have already read, I experienced a lot of ups and downs in 2008, I lost everything I treasured and basically had to fight inch by inch to keep what I have or to regain some that I have lost. The truth is what I still missing is my focus, my direction and some of my determination...
2008 was a very confusing year for me, I had to deal with a lot of 'distractions' along the way. Trying to run away from what I left behind, or rather, from what left me behind! Some things I dreamed through out the year turned to be, well... a dream... I think I also neglected and missed out a lot of the reality had to offer me in 2008.
In general, I never regretted anything in this life, the good was nice when it lasted, the bad... well, it had to happen for a reason, right? However, despite hitting nearly all my resolution for 2008, I am disappointed at how I went through some things. Over thinking some things, while inconsiderate in others...
Now, for 2009, what should be my resolution I wonder?
Of course I realize that January 1st 2009 will be the same as any other day on the calendar, nothing changed and everything else continues, but 2008, it feels like a thorn by my side...
As some of you may have already read, I experienced a lot of ups and downs in 2008, I lost everything I treasured and basically had to fight inch by inch to keep what I have or to regain some that I have lost. The truth is what I still missing is my focus, my direction and some of my determination...
2008 was a very confusing year for me, I had to deal with a lot of 'distractions' along the way. Trying to run away from what I left behind, or rather, from what left me behind! Some things I dreamed through out the year turned to be, well... a dream... I think I also neglected and missed out a lot of the reality had to offer me in 2008.
In general, I never regretted anything in this life, the good was nice when it lasted, the bad... well, it had to happen for a reason, right? However, despite hitting nearly all my resolution for 2008, I am disappointed at how I went through some things. Over thinking some things, while inconsiderate in others...
Now, for 2009, what should be my resolution I wonder?
Happy New Year to You Too...
It was New Year's Eve, Dec 31st 2008...
We have been sitting at the club since 9:30 PM, hoping to avoid the crowd and nestled comfortably within our little corner. After a few drinks, people started pouring in. Our table got crowded as well, as usual it's one of those friend's friend's friend's joining the party crowd. Suddenly the scene became eerily familiar to me, as if I have been there before... In a way, I have been there, many many times in the past... I could even spot the same type of people hanging around our table with the ones I've met during my partying days ( oh so long ago )...
I left my cushy couch for a while to take a walk, out of boredom and frustration, I walked outside to the parking lot. As soon as I saw that the traffic weren't as bad I as thought it would on New Year's Eve, I immediately hopped on the first cab I found and went home... 11 PM it was, and I just couldn't wait for this year to END, no fanfare, no celebration, I just wanted to get out of that club and out of 2008... I apologized to God of Thunder for bailing on him after he tried so hard to persuade me to go to this party, but perhaps it was best for me to go home alone that night... Somehow I felt less lonely at home, compared to at the club...
Happy New Year Everyone...
We have been sitting at the club since 9:30 PM, hoping to avoid the crowd and nestled comfortably within our little corner. After a few drinks, people started pouring in. Our table got crowded as well, as usual it's one of those friend's friend's friend's joining the party crowd. Suddenly the scene became eerily familiar to me, as if I have been there before... In a way, I have been there, many many times in the past... I could even spot the same type of people hanging around our table with the ones I've met during my partying days ( oh so long ago )...
I left my cushy couch for a while to take a walk, out of boredom and frustration, I walked outside to the parking lot. As soon as I saw that the traffic weren't as bad I as thought it would on New Year's Eve, I immediately hopped on the first cab I found and went home... 11 PM it was, and I just couldn't wait for this year to END, no fanfare, no celebration, I just wanted to get out of that club and out of 2008... I apologized to God of Thunder for bailing on him after he tried so hard to persuade me to go to this party, but perhaps it was best for me to go home alone that night... Somehow I felt less lonely at home, compared to at the club...
Happy New Year Everyone...
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