A New Hope

Somehow my father knew that there was something wrong with me this past week, even though I didn't tell him anything and I acted normally in front my parents. His words to me proved most profound and on the spot.
His message was even though you feel betrayed, you must forgive and move one... believing that something beautiful will come your way eventually.

Someone wise from a long time ago once said,
fear leads to sorrow, sorrow leads to anger, anger leads to suffering...

I awoke in the middle of the night, with my bouts with insomnia, I felt I hit rocked bottom. Whatever victory I felt the other night seemed meaningless, waging a war without a clear direction and target felt like such a burden.
I sat up, prayed and decided to call her...
What I wanted to was to make peace... I found it somewhat for myself, also found that she isn't even at peace with herself that she even envies my position, strangely...
After I hung up, I was able to finally get some sleep...

I decided that whatever I have to do, is not for revenge or war, but for peace. Peace with myself and others... and strength to move on forward.

"I'm sorry Your Majesty, but I'm a Jedi, like my father before me"