Inner Demons

Saturday's keiko proved to be the most draining for me...
At the end of the keiko I was physically tired and mentally exhausted and drained!!
On the surface, Kendo is a battle between yourself and your opponent, beneath it, it is actually a struggle within your inner self. Due to my recent turmoil, combined with the nature of my Kendo keiko, it was too much to bear...
I found that many times my Kensen was easily moved off center, anticipating the opponent's movement or attack, I tried to do waza but instead moved away from my center. Whilst I was able to get away from being hit by my agility and shinai, I realize that this was something fundamentally wrong with my Kendo.
Mr. S told me that my strike was as if I was swinging a hammer, not a sword...
While it has speed and power, perhaps the arc and momentum direction were wrong.
I am still working on that one.