Master Djedi coined the phrase to me last weekend whilst we were conversing about the state of my emotions. Even though I feel like I know myself and I am focusing on my goals as a person, there are times when something happens, even a minor nudge, could cause my well being to come crumbling down like a house of cards.
The confidence and well being that I can only build slowly over time can disappear just like that, no matter what I do or where I turn it only make the matter worse. While I can maintain my own focus, however it's the lost of direction that burdens me heavily.
In Kendo, the term Heijo Shin refers to the state of mental even-ness and calm-ness whenever faced even with grave danger. I've been trying to train myself hard to be able to stay calm in all situation, not being afraid or fazed during training sessions, hoping that it will carry over to my life somehow. I felt I have made some progress, however often times I feel that I still have a long way to go. I keep having to re-start stacking up my deck, one card at a time.
"I need inspiration, not just another negotiation"
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