Round Two

It's been a long time coming for a while now...
Queen of Diamonds tried to contact me a few times for like the past month or something, for seemingly no reason. So, before I got sick, to return the favor (she sent me some cakes) I took her out to lunch. After the usual pleasantries, I got down to business and asked her what is it that she wanted from me. She said something like she wants to be friends and hang out, etc... I politely declined, I told her the reason being for my own protection. I also did told her that I wish her the best and that she will find her way in her life.
The truth is, if she was sincere, honest and perhaps apologized, I probably would have considered the chance of getting back together with her. However, seeing her at her current state, I have a feeling that if we get back together, it'd probably end up the same again.

Well, related to that, I got a surprising news yesterday. She seem to have broken up with her current/last boyfriend... Well, I wouldn't say it's totally a surprise, but I was feeling a bit well... strange...
For a while, I thought the reason that I couldn't get back together with her was because if this dude. Then again, I realize that it's not him, it never was... Whatever it is, maybe she and I really wasn't meant to be or she just didn't want a committed relationship (with me). After that I came to the realization that this isn't my problem, it's not my break up!! I sent her a message of my concerns and that's that...

I don't see this as a competition, on who's 'winning' or who has the upper hand... If this was a competition, then I already lost.
I lost my girlfriend last year.