EvenStar left Indonesia last January, with the possibility that she may return after she finished her courses and got a job in Jakarta. At the time, I thought to myself,”…whoa… probably one year, that’s a long time… I don’t know how I was gonna cope with that.” However, I also knew that I had to open myself to the possibility of her return.
I didn’t want her to return to find me a beaten down loser, I also didn’t want to be empty handed in case she didn’t return at all. So I did what I had to do… I went out, I kept myself in physical and mental shape… Well, I guess y’all should know the rest of the story, it’s well documented after all.
Without expecting it, I grew close with BellyDancer, especially during the time I was out sick with chicken pox. Too close for comfort, closer that I ever intended her to be, in fact. After all, it started out with my curiosity…
Well, time went by and came October and came EvenStar to Jakarta. I have met her and spent time with her this past week. I haven’t been able spend some time alone with her, but spoke with her a few times. She stated while she has found a job here in Jakarta, and will stay for at least one year, there’s no way that she’ll be here in the long run. I can understand that, growing up in Canada, it’ll be difficult for anyone to move to another country, let alone Indonesia… Hell, even I am still having a difficult time sometimes. All these developments kinda put everything I had in mind to a hold at least for now. I know it seems a bit manipulative of me, but I don’t want to face another romantic break down and I know I haven’t done anyone any wrong. I was very careful at that, at the very least… What’s next? Well, let me put it this way, you’ll know as soon as I know… How’s that?
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